My Life as a Country Song – Cryin’ For Me, Toby Keith
I’m not cryin’ cause I feel so sorry for you, I am cryin’ for me
When I started dating my husband I quickly fell in love with his family – specifically very much with his Grandmom and Grandpop. They welcomed me with open arms and took an interest in me the way few others did. I found myself getting very excited to see them, and over the next three years every time I had the opportunity to be around them I enjoyed it more than I can say.
Towards the end of 2008 Grandmom was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s. We all knew that she was suffering from some dementia before that, but the new diagnosis was a blow. For some time she did pretty well, but about a year from when she was diagnosed she took a turn for the worse.
We lost Grandmom in December. I had only known her for three years, but in that time she had earned my love and respect, and I felt cheated. Jason and his family had had her for years and years, and I only had her for a short time. I knew that she was in a much better place, that she was no longer in pain, and that her thoughts were finally clear.
Shortly after she passed away I heard this Toby Keith song for the first time, and it really said exactly what I was feeling. Grandmom, the tears I’ve cried are not because I feel sorry for you, I’m crying for me.
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